Thursday, January 22, 2015

Saying goodbye.


Well this one was harder than I expected it to be. Interestingly enough not for the new kittens, I know they will be fine, but for Lena.  I love Lena, I do, but I have known all along she is not my kitty.  So, knowing this, I though I would be sad to bring her back because I love snuggling her and I knew it would be hard on her, but I didn't expect to cry..

Before
After
I know my issue isn't so much her not being with me any more, but the uncertainty of the life she is about to enter.  If I knew where she was going, knew what home, what people, what was there for her, it would be easier for me. Granted I know there are not certainties in life, but will she go home with Glimfeather? will she adjust to her new family, will they adjust to her? will there be snotty kids who won't respect her? Will there be a yappy dog who will harass her?  I just want her to be happy, she has had such a rough life so far.. She has lost everything she has ever known and loved.. (it didn't help that she did not want to be caught this morning and avoided my attempts to get her)

*sigh*

I will write up an adoption card with her history, her likes and her dislikes.. the staff know her story and will adopt her out with those considerations, I can hold on to the fact that they will work to find her a good home.

After leaving her there, my eyes started to tear up driving to work.. the radio was on and I noticed the song that was playing..



I don't need you to worry for me cause I'm alright.. 

this is not the first time a song  has been playing on the radio as I have left the shelter in tears that seemed to be talking to me.  It is pretty amusing too because I so infrequently listen to the radio these days, I tend to listen to books on tape.  After that song came


and I had visions of a 10 yr old me at the roller rink, (seriously check out the link) which for me was some old warehouse type building in the back of an industrial park in the middle of nowhere except it was THE place to go because it really was the only place to go, being so excited this song came on and jumping up and rushing to get out on the floor to skate to it..   It made me smile..

So while I'm weepy today, and probably will be for a bit.. I shall randomly yell out in my mind (not stand up in the office and do it because that would just be weird) REVERSE SKATE! and think of Joan and music from the 80s..

21 comments:

  1. I can't imagine how hard it is to let them go after you have cared for them. Especially not knowing who will get them. This one looks so much like my Sweetpea. I will think good thoughts for her and you that all will be well.

    Cats of Wildcat Woods

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  2. Purrs from me and my boys... the shelter will make sure Lena gets a good family... and I know she will bloom in her new home. (and I totally remember the roller skating rink! Wonder if we went to the same one :-) )

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  3. I can't imagine how difficult it is to let go especially if you don't know what's in store for her. Purrs for you and Lena.

    Emma and Buster

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  4. Me neither can imagine how difficult it must be to let them go , especially when you don't know to who'm they will go.

    XOXO

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  5. I can imagine how you're feeling right now. We get attached to certain ones of our own fosters and it's so very hard to let them go. We try to take comfort in the fact that they at least get a good start before going to their new homes and lives.

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  6. its ok to be sad,but you gave her a fresh start and a great one at that,bless you for all that you do,xx Rachel

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  7. yep - never fails there are those that hard just harder to take back. she is a sweet baby and we gots our paws crossed the RIGHT family comes for her soon

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  8. I haven't wanted to see Lena leave your love, safety and care either so I have tears. I definitely fell hard for her from a distance and pray for the very best for her, wishing all the kittens and Lena very special forever homes where they are safe and cherished. Hugs and purrs to you Connie...

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  9. Oh the Billy Joel gave The Staff goose bumps!! Let's hope and purray that Lena will find the purrfect home!!

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  10. I know how attached you got to Lena, which was a good thing because she needed you. But now it's time for her to go off into her future, and all you can do is wish her well. Situations like hers must be the hardest part of fostering.

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  11. Oh my .. I don't know how you can do it.

    XO,
    JC

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  12. Aw...That's really sad. I hate letting things go like that. Man it is hard. But think on the bright side, she will have a great home. I do hope who ever got her is taking great care of her.

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  13. Yup, some kitties touch you a bit more than others.
    Letting go ,in that case, is hard.
    Purrs and headbumps,
    Georgia and Julie,
    Treasure and JJ

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  14. Oh dear, this is hard for you. A lot of us in the blogisphere really fell for Lena, including me. Fingers crossed for her future. You did a lot for her and now hopefully, she can do the rest.

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  15. Your courage and compassion have me in awe.
    Big hugs from half a world away.
    XO

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  16. You gave Lena the best start in life. Paws crossed the adoption team will find her the most wonderful home and she'll have a fantastic life.

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  17. That would be really hard. Not everyone is cut out for the job that you do. I know that I could never do it. You are an amazing woman.

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  18. We're gonna miss these kittens too...'specially Lena. We wish them all well...and hope they all do well in the new homes we know they willl find.

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  19. It must be hard for you, as you would become so attached to them and at some point you need to say goodbye to them but that comes with taking care of foster kitties

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  20. We know it must be really hard but smile, there are other kitties waiting for your wonderful nurturing just down the road...

    Noodle and crew

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  21. WE'LL yell it for you Aunt Connie! *pounces on Allie* REVERSE SKATE!!!!

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