Tuesday, December 31, 2019

Muffin 2002-2019

Muffin's time on earth has come to an end. I have broken into a million pieces and am in the process of putting myself back together, which is not easy as most of these edges were still sharp and broken from losing Jack.

Losing Jack so suddenly I swore that losing them slowly was much better, but it is an absolute bear to go through.

Muffin started going downhill back in May when I opted to have the growth/cyst on the back of her ear removed. I wonder how much time that cost me at times, but I fall back on the fact that it was going to totally impact her quality of life because it was growing and I could see it becoming a serious problem for her and draining it was not an option - as it actually drained on its own once and it grew back almost immediately.

I was able to nurse her through that and she had some good days and some bad days, but her kidneys were failing and there was nothing that could be done for that. Her blood work said she had been dealing with it for years but it did not slow her down until the end. She bravely faced muscle wasting and arthritis, and she continued to rule over life at Casa de Gato until Thanksgiving.

It was at that time that I knew the end was near. If it hadn't been the holiday I might have scheduled the appointment then and set her free of her body then, but I couldn't. I was selfish. I did everything I could think of to improve her quality of life and then some, and somehow, someway, we did it.. we had one last Christmas together.

It was completely bittersweet.. I was able to cuddle her and love on her and tell her what a wonderful kitty she was, but she was so tired and she wanted to lay in her hammock and not with me for most of the day. I offered her food often, I gave her many treatments with the Assisi Lounge, but she had become anemic and there was very little life left for her.

She had a few good days, and I was very hopeful we would see the new year.. but that was not to be.

There might have been more things we could have tried, more meds, more treatments, more.. but she was tired.. her life was little more than sleep and being medicated and I loved her too much to make her live that life..

Even at the end.. every single cell in my body wanted to tell the vet to go away (we were lucky enough to have an at-home euthanasia) but I knew, I knew.. it was time.

There is so much I can't face right now. Walking up the stairs to go to bed the first time was almost impossible because for the last month I was either carrying her up with me or she was waiting for me at the top of the stairs. I've rearranged my office so hopefully, that won't be as hard..

The other kitties seem to be adjusting okay. She had been so sick for so long I think they more than knew..

I miss her so fiercely.

She was a force. She was the most willful kitten I have fostered, the most determined, the most set in her course of action. She knew her mind and she was going to get you to know it too. I was her human far more than she was my cat.. and I loved her for that.

In Star Trek, Klingons have a tradition of bellowing at the sky when a warrior dies to warn those in Sto'Vo'Kor that a great warrior is coming. Somehow that made up tradition seemed to fit..

oh how I miss her..

Tuesday, December 24, 2019

Merry Christmas

If you did not get a holiday card from us, here it is..

if you wanted one and didn't get one, let me know and I'll get one out to you. I hope you have a lovely holiday

Dear Santa, let's try this again

Two years ago, Happy Bear wrote a letter to Santa asking for what his little heart wanted most..

Unfortunately, the reply was less than what was hoped for. The question is.. are the elves that are helping Santa any more efficient this year?

I also wanted to show off the upgrades to the kitten room bath. It still needs a coat of paint, and something over the sink - be it a mirror or maybe a painting, and a backsplash of some sort, but this is the general gist of what it now looks like.

Just a reminder what it used to look like.

Wednesday, December 18, 2019

Dear Santa.. what's this?

Hey, look! Santa came!

Two little boys who have already been neutered and who just need a little time at finishing school.  We have "No Socks" and Chester.. I was thinking of renaming No Socks to Field.. but the CatMan poopooed that idea.. so.. what do you think I should name the solid black one?

They are both unsure of humans. When I walked in No Socks hid behind the couch and meowed at me. I called him over and he came out. Chester stayed in the carrier and it took quite some coaxing to pull him out, but once he realized we were cat people .. well..

We have some behavior issues, and some litter box issues which might need some serious retraining - I hope not but we'll see how it goes. Chester started peeing in the bedding and when I grabbed him to put him in the box he continued to pee all over me, all over the floor on the way to the box and once we got there he finally ran out of urine 😹

He is incredibly curious and really liked watching me wash out his urine from the bed.. Both need an extra dose of confidence, but that will come with time..

Friday, December 6, 2019

Visiting kittens

A while ago I went to visit a friend's foster kitten. I swear this kitten was trying to come home with me!! What do you think?

Yes, the kitten fever burns..

Wednesday, December 4, 2019

Christmas Tree oh Christmas Tree

It is that time of year again.. and isn't it a blessing that Miss Muffin got to take her place once again..

For those of you who are new to the blog, several years ago I couldn't face dragging out all of our ornaments and decorating the tree so we just threw all of our cat toys on the tree. I loved it so much we have done it ever since.  To do this we have to pull out the basket of toys which Muffin loves to crawl in and claim as her own. Last year we lost a number of toys to moths and the basket was retired and they have been in a plastic tote, so this year we just dumped all the toys on the floor, and true to her nature, Muffin claimed all the toys.

The tree is a little sparse due to the reduced number of toys, but I still think it looks lovely.. It makes me happy, it makes the cats happy, and we don't have to stress about broken ornaments..


If you would like a Christmas card from us you can send me your address, fill out the postable form. I sent out the first wave of cards yesterday so if you don't get one in the next few days, please request one.. I didn't keep the list from last year because keeping up with who has moved would be too much.
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